I'm not an easy person to know. I tend to freak out if I'm noticed, then run away and hide. Not very good for someone who sells her own art etc. But hey, I do try. It's not helped by extreme natural shyness, I've taught myself to *switch on* when I have to although I tend to babble from nerves. I became that way because I spent many years hiding from one person. Look me up in the electoral roll, phone book etc and I'm not there. I'm a footnote in a court case. I'm not even really here. I'm hiding behind a business name. It's the reason I haven't put any more work up. It opens me up to being noticed and I don't do criticism or admiration well at all. Or anything really. I have been taking baby steps for the last few years and trying not to flinch but lately I have lost my nerve again and run away and hid. Having this blog is supposed to be my therapy and learning to have strangers wander through and feel comfortable. But then, some of you guys are family and some are RL friends and I find myself uncomfortable writing about some stuff or putting me out here. Then... Tonight I outed myself in a group to defend someone who I honestly admire. Some people tend to get being a fan mixed up with being a friend and are offended if they're not treated like a friend. I never make that mistake as I hate when people who like my work are all over me like a rash BUT have no idea who I am as a person. Anyway, I went in and said my piece. And now, I am totally freaked out all over again. But, I guess it's one foot in front of the other and I may as well keep going now. so! expect to see some stuff happening around here.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
I just put some pix up from World Superbikes at Phillip Island.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
I just got back from Melbourne. I bought a car *G* A VN Group A SS replica to be exact. Of course, my favourite car is the Maserati MC12 but in the meantime this one will do me...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Anyone know how to stop a drafting table from suddenly releasing its locking mechanism and launching everything onto me with no warning?
No glass or water to be flung randomly around this time luckily LOL
Don't know why it's doing it, it's weight balancey thingy must be off. It was locked and I made the husband check it too.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
How the hell have I managed to GAIN [ yes, I am shrieking] 2 more kgs when I have stopped taking all the medication responsible for weight gain. GAH!
Hmmm. wonder if the scales are working properly? Better not freak out just yet.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
At this point I'm pretty damn sure I packed my brains in a box and labelled it PBO shed or lounge. That's what every box we have seems to have been labelled. And. not by me.
How the hell can you lose 100 cd/dvds in a removal under 200 klms? I am gobsmacked that they've been moved the length and breadth of the country but 200kms and they've run away from home! maybe they felt neglected?
Backups from 1994. Client files. Floppy disks Cd's and Dvd's from computer magazines, which btw I found every last one I ever bought since 1994 BUT not the freaking dvd that contains the software that is vital to a current project. Shit. i even found the disks for my Apple circa 1992.
I can buy the latest version of it but I'd have to play catchup learning the new stuff *pouts* and I LIKE the version I have from last year.
I think I need to need to listen to waterfalls or babbling creeks.
Friday, March 14, 2008
At this point I'm pretty damn sure I packed my brains in a box and labelled it PBO shed or lounge. That's what every box we have seems to have been labelled. And. not by me. How the hell can you lose 100 cd/dvds in a removal under 200 klms? I am gobsmacked that they've been moved the length and breadth of the country but 200kms and they've run away from home! maybe they felt neglected? Backups from 1994. Client files. Floppy disks Cd's and Dvd's from computer magazines, which btw I found every last one I ever bought since 1994 BUT not the freaking dvd that contains the software that is vital to a current project. Shit. i even found the disks for my Apple circa 1992. I can buy the latest version of it but I'd have to play catchup learning the new stuff *pouts* and I LIKE the version I have from last year. * Sorry, I'm not creative enough to do 2 posts at a time, I barely remember to make 1 a day sometimes!
Words of Wisdom by antikva at 11:15 pm
Sorry 'bout the shoe box background! It's incredibly hard to find something to hang a necklace on and take photo's of it. My official photographer [hubby] is in bed and I can't take photo's to save my life [ as you can tell LOL] but you can at least get the gist of what I have been doing.
This one is for Daughter No 2. I was going to toss it as I didn't like the pattern but she loves it, so I turned it into this. It's pink. Yes. Not really me but anyway!
So, worked out ok. I am in the process of making more now that I have worked out how to finish them off. Buttons are cooking now, so should have pics tomorrow sometime. I have a lot of designs I've drawn, now I need to turn them into something wearable. I'm also planning on gilding in the morning and have been making gesso as well as charcoal to make new ink as it all had to be left behind :-(
Fun. The neighbours probably think I'm brewing something illegal ROFL
Yes, Rob, I know, I forgot. Will take a pic tomorrow sometime and put it up, I promise! It's not *that* interesting though!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
I actually cried tonight, yelled at hubby and kids and nearly slammed the cat in the doorway. I don't cry or yell very often so everyone took flight to hide, which is the reason I nearly squished the cat.
I'm thinking of putting up a reward for someone to find my bloody software disks.
I know they're in a box but have no clue which one as every.single.box is labelled lounge or shed. I have a deadline and as I am a Ms control freak with perfectionist tendencies I stress out if something gets in the way. Although, as I said it's very rare for me to get to the frustation level of crying and yelling.
So now, I'm listening and singing along to Bay City Rollers *g*
Bye Bye Baby [heh]
One of my blogging buddies has started a new blog called What I see out my window I'm sending him a pic tomorrow, bit hard right now, cos it's dark LOL
Go send him a pic.
All of me loves All of you [ hmm, never heard this BCR song before!]
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Youngest is sick so is home from school.
We have a room designated the tardis. It has lots of boxes stuffed into it and I like to go in there and play tetris.
It's like a kind of parallel universe Christmas here atm, boxes that contain items that have no direct correlation to the contents. Fun.
I have made a new necklace but now have to work out how to finish it off [the doing up part] Tomorrow I am making buttons ;-) then painting, then I have a site design and database concept to finish off as well as it's matching quote.
Yes, Rob, will out up a pic of the tshirt I did for Superbikes :-) just for you! LOL
I am trying to get organised. I hate chaos when it's unordered. Much like this post!
OH! Before I forget, we were out the front tonight and heard this weird noise coming from the creek/bush over the road, all of a sudden this humungous [sp??] kangaroo comes bounding across the road at us, down the side of the house to the back and starts eating grass happily as if we weren't even there! It was huge, taller than me too [yes, I know, what a surprise. seems like everything and everyone is taller than me atm! heh] Couldn't get a photo this time though.
Going to get sleep now before I fall off the chair. Nite All.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
I think at this point I just want to find somewhere quiet to hide until they all grow up.
Although, and I am going to save the text message I got and whip it out the next time they roll their eyes at me.
The gist of the message is Mum was right, they were wrong and now Mum has to wave her magic wand and fix it all.
I'll be in Melbourne waving my wand around if anyone else needs fixing.
PS. I didn't get past drawing up the latest painting as I can't find my paints in all the boxes, so I worked on some polymer necklace designs instead. Hopefully if I can get my brain functioning when I get home I'll upload some pix.
Friday, March 07, 2008
I've written a post about our weekend at Superbikes but it's all over the place, so I've saved it as a draft for now. I've been editing the thousands of pix hubby took for me and trying to burn them to dvds for everyone. I also had some medical appointments and stuff today, so was a bit busy too sit and rewrite.
Anyway, test results are back
1. No more steroids for a while. YAY!
2. Am allowed to restart physio. YAY!
3. My eyes are fine, the problem was my glasses. They were overpowered [L side x 2 & R side by 5] and the imbalance caused the blurry vision, headaches etc. So, new glasses YAY!
4. Got the bill and paid for new glasses and sunglasses [prescription] OH!
5. Still got a squillion boxes to unpack. Sigh.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
We're back from the Superbikes at Phillip Island, had a great weekend. I got sunburnt/windburnt as usual. We were planning a leisurely drive back and lunch with the Daughter left behind and visit some friends. Just as we were packing, got a phone call to say Yoda was sick. Oy.
So, power packed and flew straight home on the freeways. If you ever need to know, it takes 3 and a bit hours from there to here on a direct flight. Oh and a headache and a sickening feeling that you abandoned one of your babies in their time of need because you know no one here that could pick him up and the school don't have a sick bay and OMG he's sick! I was freaking out as I couldn't tell exactly *how* sick he was and the grandparents had already left to go home, so....
So today I am painting and gilding before my head explodes. Have to get the pix off the camera and choose some to upload. I'll tell all later tonight.